Monday, February 25, 2008


Wikipedia says this: "Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans." Wouldn't the world be a lonely place without it? Mine certainly would. I am very grateful for all of my friends. It seems God sends all different sorts of people into our lives at different times, depending on what each of us need at the time. I think friendship is a little like marriage in that it is rarely 50/50. Sometimes it is 90/10 and sometimes 40/60, etc... In a true friendship there is an alteration of lifting each other up, depending on where we each are. This is my opinion anyway. In a friendship, it is nice to be needed, makes me feel less guilty then when I need to lean on them. Appeases my guilt at not actually being the Superwoman our culture pressures me to be I guess. The truth is, none of us can do it all by ourselves.

I am in a bit of a valley experience in one of my friendships right now. We have been friends for a long time and I am confident with God's help we will resolve this and move forward. If that is what we both want I guess. I want it, but if she doesn't, I can't do much about that. I think in the end we will have a stronger friendship because we have both been able to be honest with each other and move past it. Forgivness is a choice sometimes, not a feeling. I am scared we will not resolve this and I will lose a dear friend. At the same time, I have spent most of my life shelving who I really am because I was so afraid of being rejected. I want to be Michele - the Michele I was born to be - and still be loved regardless of the good or bad. I am for the first time in my almost 40 years not playing the game of being what I thought others wanted and being who I really am. It is scary, because I am far from perfect. I am just me, trying to be the best me I can.

I found all of these in Proverbs 27:

"Wounds from a friend are better than many kisses from an enemy."

"The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense."

"As iron sharpens iron, a friend sharpens a friend."


Friar Tuck said...

sorry for the difficult situation

Anonymous said...

By the way-- Where are we going for your 40th? P