Friday, October 31, 2008
Years ago when Reagan and Jake were just getting old enough to start understanding things - like Halloween and Santa Claus - I got very confused within myself. I even went so far as to go through a spell of thinking maybe we should not even have Santa in our home, as I thought maybe he was stealing all the attention away from Christ. For sure Halloween must be of the Devil - right?? This phase didn't' last very long - thank goodness for my kids, but especially my in-laws who were walking around with their jaws hanging open in shock. They had already thought I was off my rocker and an unacceptable bride to their precious baby - now they had actual proof!
Seriously though, I had a discussion with a dear friend the other day. She was feeling torn about Halloween. She had many Christian friends telling her if you did ANYTHING - even a church carnival - that she was being "worldly". One year Halloween was on a Wednesday - when a friend found out I would be taking my kids trick or treating in place of our usual church activities-he said, "I will be at church being holy." My comment, "Do you think I have to be at church to be holy?" He said, "Absolutely." BTW I rarely see or talk to that man anymore! :)
Here is what finally opened my eyes - God is so much bigger than all this petty judgement that Christians put on each other and the world. The bible says that God sees our heart. So, He knows we are just out to have fun and are not secretly in our heart serving Satan! As humans I think it is easy to put God in a box and assume that is where he functions. He is SO much bigger than we can even imagine. We have always had fun on Halloween - Santa still makes an appearance on Christmas Eve - and my kids all have a heart for the Lord. They desire to be in church and they each have a personal walk with Christ. So, we will be having a blast tonight - and if someone chooses to abstain because they believe it is the right thing for them - I do not judge them - all I ask is they do not judge me either. It is, after all, between me and God.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
We will obviously not all be happy on Nov 4th, but you know what - we will all live thru it! Either way it will not be the end of the world for any of us. We all hope this is a time that our country does turn around and begin to change in a positive way for generations to come. If all Americans, including the media, could put as much effort into the things that unify us as we do the things that divide us - who knows how far we could go - together.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
It has been a good day. Nothing extraordinary happened, it has just been a really good day. I feel grateful.
Wonderful things I have been blessed to be a part of:
- A friend of Sean's that no longer has knee pain or hay fever
- A new friend that is an older lady that told me today she can go up and down stairs without pain for the first time in a long time. She also has increased energy, enough so much that she was babysitting her 3 small grandchildren! yea!
- A friend no longer suffering from headaches or migraines
- A lady able to leave home without her inhaler for the first time in a long time
From just increased energy to an actual total life change - WHAT A PRIVILEGE to be a small part of it all! Yes - I am grateful.
We have been reading the Ramona series by Beverly Cleary. It has been fun, but the books are weird due to being written in the 50's and 60's. They have the normal stuff in there from books of that day - when people are happy, they are gay, etc...
When Lizzie and I read aloud together each day sometimes Jake will be in the room doing other work. He is a little eavesdropper really. If we are reading something he finds funny he will actually come over and join us. Well, the other day we were reading Ramona the Brave and the mom is telling Ramona and Beezus (Ramona's big sis) that she has gotten a job. Beezus immediately exclaimed, "Mom, you are going to be liberated!". Jake and I were rolling in the floor laughing and Lizzie didn't get it. Try to explain that to a 6 year old - it was an interesting conversation!
Well, ever since that day, when I am doing anything from making dinner to leaving for a Reliv appointment - Jake will ask, "Are you gonna be liberated?" or "Are you liberated?" or any variable you can think of with liberated in the sentence. It is kinda funny at this point, but getting old fast I must admit to you. I can not admit to Jake it is irritating or he will be relentless. He is a teenage boy after all, looking for any amunition to irritate a family member.
I find it interesting that in the 50's a woman was liberated if she worked outside the home and now it is the majority of women. I guess I have seen both worlds. I loved being a Dental Hygienist - but never more than being with my kids. Reagan crawled for the first time and took her first steps at the baby sitter's house while I was at work. I cried over that. I do not think there is anything wrong with women that want to have careers. I just know for me, I LOVE being with my kids. Can I be honest - I don't really feel the need to be liberated. Maybe because I have a choice. I have the greatest job in the world and I do it when I want and around my kids. Maybe if I felt I was forced to be home or forced to be at work either way I would want liberation? I guess in one way I have found a way to liberate myself and be home and work when I want. It seems like the best of both worlds to me.
Liberated...the word still kinda cracks me up!
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Today we had to be out of the house by 8am - that is very early for us Grabbe people - well excluding Sean, who purposefully will set appointments for himself at 8am in order to get up and at 'em. That is very foreign to my understanding. I don't get why someone would choose to do that to themselves??? I LOVE it if I can stay in my Jammies 1/2 the day, or on the rare occasion I don't' have to go anywhere ALL day long!!! But this is about today, I was up at 6:30, had everyone dressed and out the door by 8, and we will not be back home until about 9pm tonight. To top it off we did a road trip last night to Helena and got home about 11:45pm. I am tired...did I mention that I am tired?
By the way, I am tired, but I am also HAPPY!! Oh so happy, because I can have a day where I can go all day and not have to worry about whether I will actually make it. When my health was so compromised it was very hard to make any plans because I never knew how I would feel the next day, much less ten minutes from now. It was hard. So, yes - I AM TIRED - but oh so glad I have the chance to be tired!!
"Never give up, never surrender" and all that...
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
In this photo on the right Lizzie has just stuffed a fourth of a cheeseburger in Jake's mouth as he was talking... read the dialog below for the entire scoop:
As we were walking into Old Chicago:
Mom: "Lizzie, please order something other than a cheeseburger because you only ever eat one bite of that thing."
Lizzie: "OK, Mom"
Waitress arrives, taking orders, gets to Lizzie.
Lizzie: "Cheeseburger and french fries, please."
Waitress: "OK, sweetie, and if you eat the whole thing I will bring you ice cream on the house!"
Snickers from all at the table over 6 years old.
20 Minutes later: As waitress sees hamburger cut in 1/2 and only 1/4th eaten. "Tell you what, sweetie, if you finish that bite (points to the 1/4th of burger) I will get your ice cream!"
Within 2 seconds of the waitress turning around, Jake leans forward to say something, "Moooo" The word was never finished...quick as lightening Lizzie had grasp the 1/4 piece and shoved the entire thing in Jake's mouth!!!!!!! Needless to say we were all astounded! Mostly Jake, as Sean and I were practically falling out of our seats laughing.
Guess what? Lizzie ate every drop of that ice cream. And her brother still loves her anyway...
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Thursday we found out it was a film about viruses. We originally were told that Jake would play scales and a college student would be playing a more advanced piece. I do NOT know the details and will probably explain this inaccurately, but this is how I understood it. They will use the sequencing of the chords to the song as a way to show the progression of the viruses? Guess we will all have to watch and see how it works. I am sure Jake's shot will be 10 seconds or something. It will be on the actual National Geographic channel supposedly sometime in December. That is all the information I have for now! Thanks for caring enough to be interested!!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
You know the old saying: "Hurt me once, shame on you, Hurt me twice, shame on me"? Something like that anyway...well, I think of it often. Why? You might ask, because I have unreal expectations of people. I can have a person in my life that hurts me and then next time I encounter them, do I expect hurt again? NO! I am actually shocked when I end up hurt again. Hence the downfall my friend pointed out. I will be shocked each and everytime this same person does something hurtful. I have unrealistic expectations - that somehow miraculously this asshole will suddenly have a bit of tact.
The flip side is that I feel all people have an inherent potential to be the best they can be. I have actually watched people evolve into great leaders, people that were far from that when I first met them. It is an amazing thing to observe. The thing I forget is the most important aspect of expecting a change in people. The truth is that I am out of the equation really. For change to occur, change must be desired. A person must desire a change for themselves and that is the beginning of change.
I am not sure what I will do with this observation. I do not want to expect bad things from people. I want to keep believing that people are inherently good. At the same time I want to protect myself from being hurt. I think for now I will take those few people that seem to be like a poison to me and compartmentalize them as toxic and set healthy boundaries for myself.
Thanks for putting up with my ramblings...any thoughts?
Friday, October 17, 2008
This is how the takes looked...too bad it is blurry! They darkened the entire room and spotlighted his hands as he played. The camera man stayed inches away from his hands. Jake was originally told he would just play a scale, but once we got there they added a whole song and then broke the song into chords... he was very nervous, but did well under pressure. They were very kind to him and just neat people in general. It was a fun experience. So - watch for "Jake's Hands" on a television set near you soon!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
"Wait a minute here! It isn't even the middle of October yet, God!"
We got less snow than they did in town, which is unusual. It will all be gone in a few days, I am sure. The prediction is 60 degrees by Wednesday - YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Thanks for letting me complain, and whine, and gripe... I needed that!
So here is little Chica, barely sticking her head out of the covers. I mentioned briefly yesterday that we had our first snow. It is still snowing, we are suppose to get about 8 inches down here in the valley and about 30 up in the mountains. Chica is not thrilled.
You should see her in the spring when the weather starts having intermittent warm and sunny days. She heads out the door with her tail wagging so hard her entire back end is moving with it. No tail wagging today. She knows what this first white spell means. She walked out last night with her head hanging low, did her business, and ran back inside as quick as dogly possible.
When it is warm, we joke that it is the weather of her people. So, what is winter to her? Torture I suppose - so we have learned, the hard way I might add, to watch for lumps in the bed - she burrows her way down under the covers and remains there as much as possible. She emerges quickly if she hears a rattle of any sort of wrapper - food is a good motivator - how sad when I am only opening a package of batteries. She only emerged for this picture because I called her name - about 10 times. Then once the picture was taken and she figured out I had only summoned her for my own measly amusement, she retreated back down into her warm safe haven.
Yes, Chica, it is only fall, but you are right, it will be a long white winter. You poor thing! But spring will return in about 6 or 7 months and you can once again wiggle your entire butt in glee!
Friday, October 10, 2008
Five things you may not know about me:
1) I am a Dental Hygienist by profession. Well, RETIRED Dental Hygienist. I cleaned teeth for 11 years and enjoyed it very much. I love people, so I enjoyed the people anyway. I never enjoyed the drama that always goes on in offices with lots of women working together.
2) I always wanted to live on a farm and have 6 kids. I live on 2 acres and have 3 kids. This is perfect for me - sometimes it is good to NOT get what we wish for. Growing up, I always just wanted to be a mom. I don't even really know why. It was not like my parents taught us a woman's place is home or anything like that. I just always had a deep desire for it.
3) I love to be with my kids - yes even the teenagers! I have lots of friends who LOVE when school returns so they can send their kids back for 8 hours a day. I have my moments, don't get me wrong, when I need some peace and quiet. Overall though, I think my kids are fabulous people and I truly enjoy them.
4) All the curtains in my house where sewn by my dear Grandma Mary. The kids joke that 50 years from now when they are all out of style they will still hang here just cuz Grandma made them for me - possibly true.
5) I love to bake during the first snow. All those years of living with friends, then living in a 2 bedroom apartment with 5 of us while we built our log home I dreamed of being in my log kitchen looking out the window and baking in my warm house. That is why at 10pm last night I was making Toffee Bars and Chocolate Chip cookies. It feels like a dream come true, every fall, and I hope the magic of it never leaves. I also hope it inspires me to remember all those out there right now cold and lonely. May God deliver them as well.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Living Room - with my beautiful Model - Lizzie!
This is inspired by Shelley over at Building a Log Cabin. I would put the link here, but I have never been able to figure out how to do that! Anyway, Shelley loves her switch plates, as she well should, cuz they are fabulous! Here are mine:
Bear - Guest Bath
Master Bathroom - One day, when the cabinets are finished, this
cowboy won't have to hide behind this shelf anymore!
1) Last night as I was folding laundry she walked in just as I was folding Jake's unmentionables. She said, "EEEEEEWWWWWW I would never touch boy panties!" Let's hope she holds that belief for a long time to come.
2) Today trying on shoes, her right foot was about a size 3 and her left foot was about a 2 1/2. After trying on about 20 pairs of shoes she exclaimed, "I think there is something wrong with my feet!"
3) After said shoe shopping adventure, I got in the car and said, "I am exhausted! Are you tired, Lizzie?" Her reply, " I am not pescotted, I am going home to play Wii."
4) When we pulled up in front of Staples for a notebook for Jake a voice from the backseat said:
"Why are we at S-T-A-P- pause Cish - E - S??" Next time you are at staples notice that the L is a staple so it has a curve at the top. She didn't know what letter it was, but it looked Cish to her!
I could go on and on - Thank you God for our little surprise, even if I did cry when I found out I was pregnant with her. I am glad that His ways are not our ways and things that seem bad in the beginning can turn out to be the biggest blessings of our lives!!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
I used to dread Mondays. That is one advantage to loving your job - Mondays are just as fabulous as any other day.
I hope you all had as fulfilling day as I did. I feel tired, but it is a good tired. The kind of tired a person feels when you feel you have done your best for now.... OH - I will leave you with a quote I heard this weekend which is now one of my favorites!
"I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness." Mother Teresa
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Lizzie and Laura with the box they slept in - Nice Paint Job!
Sean lounging in our home away from home. Of course, Chica was there! When we came
home and sat down at our table we felt so priveledged that tonight we won't be
out there sleeping again. So sad that there are others without that option.
I LOVE my purple sleeping bag!
Sean singing "bye bye Miss American Pie"!!! shocking! and there was no
Lizzie and Laura singing "The Lion Sleeps Tonight"!!!
We love our box! Notice in the background - those people brought a table, chairs, and even a recliner from home!! They had it all cleaned up and loaded before we ever got up this morning! They were out of there before 7am...silly industrious morning people - I just don't get it!
Peek a boo, girls! This was their peep hole from inside their box!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
That is her easy bake oven in the forefront of the picture - yes, she even cooks! So what if it is only enough for each person so get a one inch by one inch size piece - it is still cake! Serving sizes for small people - or dieters! Hey, I think I am onto something - If I only eat desserts that come from the easy bake oven cut into fourths... That is a lot fewer calories!!