I used to spend about 90% of my time in bed or laying on the couch. Mostly in bed, in the dark, just barely making it thru each day. My health was very compromised and I felt like such a burden to my family that I was very depressed. God has brought me thru so much and now to have a life filled with hope seems like such a gift.
At first, I woke up daily feeling overwhelmed with gratitude. As humans I think over time we tend to somehow forget how bad things used to be once they are behind us. If this were not true, there would be a lot more only children in this world! Thank the Lord the pain of those things does lesson with time. Now, I don't often go back emotionally to where I was before, but suddenly one day something will trigger a memory that reminds me. That happened this weekend. When I go back and visit those dark days I am SO filled with gratefulness at where I am today that it is difficult to even find words to descibe it. I am so undeserving and so humbled by all God has done for me to bring me to where I am today. I am Happy, Healthy, and full of Hope for my wonderful future!
With each day being a gift, an unopened present with the hope of what is in store for me, I just want to be the woman God wants me to be. I owe Him SO much! I can never do enough to repay Him, but I just pray I am a blessing to someone else. Maybe someone who, like me in those dark days, does not see the light at the end of the tunnel and can't find their way. I will take their hand let them know they are not alone. If I survived by the grace of God, so can they!