I Wonder...

I wonder if we knew how things would end before we even started how our choices would change. If a person knew they would end up divorced, would they still go into the marriage looking for the good things that will come out of it? I wonder if that person would choose to not marry, knowing the divorce was inevitable, and then live a life more lonely and less fulfilled?

I just think I am better off NOT knowing what my future holds. I think if I would have known some of the things life has held for me, I would have been too terrified to actually live life. The truth is, life can be scary. Well, it scares the hell out of me more than I want to admit. The truth is, I want to look at life as an adventure, kind of like the thrill of a roller coaster. It brings apprehension and suspense, but ends up being fun in the end. I am learning to look at things that scare me as a new thing to experience and overcome with victory. I am learning that the strong woman I once was is still inside there, just waiting for the chance to peek out. I refuse to let my fears of "what if" keep me from living this life to the fullest! So, I don't need to know how it will all end, I just need to live life to the fullest, One Day at a Time.