Friday, July 25, 2008
Today is 21 years that I have been married to Sean. The truth is, I saw the floral truck and wondered who had sent me flowers... then when the red roses appeared, I thought, those must be from Sean, but WHY?? My next thought was: "Oh my gosh, what is the date, is it my anniversary?" See, I knew it was coming... I just had not pinned down an actual day in my head yet. The really pathetic part is this has happened the past 3 years!! How you ask?? I have no good answer to that. I am unorganized???? Is that reasonable? If the roles were reversed I would be SO pissed! Sean just laughed when I called him and said, "I got you again!"
I will be honest with you, the past year has been the hardest so far of the 21. I will not disclose the reasons here, but the truth is, neither one of us is the person we were 21 years ago. That is not good or bad, but just the facts. It is actually good and bad. Good that we are learning to be true to ourselves, bad because we have struggled thru that apart instead of growing together thru it. No matter what, here are the things I know to be true about Sean:
1. He is a GOOD GOOD man at his core.
2. He loves his kids with all his heart.
3. He will do anything within his power to provide for me anything I really want.
4. This marriage means enough to him that he remembers it on his own every year - even if it took the first 10 years I knew him before he finally remembered my birthday was the 20th and not the 21st!!
Bottom line, no matter where we are emotionally in our marriage, I love him just because we have been thru a lot. I will always love him.