Hey Guys! I have missed you all. I can't wait to go read your blogs and get caught up!!
I have truly experienced a miracle this past weekend. Maybe I should start at the beginning so you will fully understand.
I have talked of being sick before, but I have never really talked about my anxiety. I have never had anxiety or panic attacks prior to my Environmental Illness, but boy did it come on full force at that time! I have often wondered how many people who have been diagnosed with mental illness might actually just have severe allergic reactions to things in their environment...cuz I am telling you, I was nuts! Anyway, that is a topic for an entirely different day.
Where I was - When I would have my allergic reactions I would get such cloudy thinking, that I could not think clearly at all. In fact, it got to the point that my kids would have to tell me how to get home! So, my solution was to not drive without my mom or my husband in the car with me. For four years I did not leave my house without my husband or my mom...sometimes a friend, but in that instance I would be very nervous still. I stayed in my house for weeks at a time without leaving it. Have I mentioned before we built a totally toxin free home for me to live in? We were building our home when I became ill, so we just finished it totally toxin free so I could have a "clean, safe" environment to live in.
NOW - To the miracle! God has healed me SO much over the past couple of years. I still feel so humbled and grateful, that words are inadequate to express how it feels to have my life back. I FLEW TO SAN JOSE THIS PAST WEEKEND!!! I still can't believe it. Not bad for a girl that used to have panic attacks just going to pick up someone at the airport. You see, I had flown about 5 years ago when I was so sick and it was one of the worst experiences of my life. Imagine someone allergic to new clothes dyes, perfumes, soaps, regular detergents, fuel, etc... closed inside a plane with all those things!! The miracle is that I, Michele, am now a woman that FLIES!!! Someone pinch me, it does NOT seem real!